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你还记得孩子气的我吗?

2012-01-30T22:25:00.003+08:00

A new year , a new start.

New friends, new relationships, new problems.

How am I supposed to brave through this year without any hiccups like last year?

Secondary school life seem to have more hiccups than poly life.

And I wish I can go back in time.

Because I miss the times when I'm young without any worries.

And now I have met you people.

Things are now a little more complex than usual.

Emotionally attached me.

2011-10-08T23:28:00.003+08:00

Again, I got something on my mind.

I get it off my mind, on how differently you treat me.

Please stop leading me on. Stop please.

I cannot stop myself from wondering what you are doing every single day.

Your morning texts are what I look forward to every morning.

Late night msn sessions with you.

Even though all we talked was us being bored.

And I was pretty sure, you got other girls entertaining you.

One was just one of the boring ones.

Dont appear to care for me.

Cuz I cannot let myself being led on anymore.

You led me far enough.

Isn't this enough?

I owe you. Like you owe.

I dont want us to be talking cuz the stuffs we owe each other.

I want you to talk to me, cuz you want to.

Please. Dont led me on anymore.

Regrets.

2011-09-29T01:18:00.002+08:00

Another boring day.

I'm living my life like a zombie.

Why does it have to be this way?

I'm seriously one big idiot.

Wrong words come out of my mouth.

Why can't I control them?

Why can't I use my brain to think before I speak?

Why do I always have to mess up things?

Stupid, don't mind my words please.

I know I was wrong to say all those.
I'm just joking.

Why do I have to say all those?

Why am I so dumb?

WHY.

新岁只是我自己.

2011-09-28T02:12:00.002+08:00

Again, long time since I last posted.

I post only when I have many stuffs on my mind.

Who to cheat?

This place is my refuge.

I really dont get you at all.

You are hot one moment.

Cold one moment.

I keep feeling this distance between us.

I told myself not to be emotionally attached to you.

Yet I failed.

I feel so inferior around you.

I never feel this before, and why are you making me feel like this?

I haven't entirely fall for you, maybe just a little emotionally attached to you.

Don't make me feel emotions I had never felt for the past 2 years.

Forget it.
I'm stronger than you think.

The heartbreak I had, was more heartbreaking than you can think.

Just don't treat my heart , like a toy again.

Little miracles.

2011-09-13T22:07:00.003+08:00

Let's just say.
I think major problems is going to surface once again.

After a so-called peaceful year.

I had been telling myself, I can never get attached to him. Emotionally.

But I'm getting slowly sucked in.

I not sure which words of his are real and fake..

What the shit is happening to me?

I really need to keep my distance a little.

But with him, texting me morning everyday.

Makes me happy each day, even his morning texts aren't really happy.

I think I'm screwed.

I just have to say.

Don't play with my once broken heart, please.

Wrong signals.

2011-09-01T01:31:00.002+08:00

Updating this space once in awhile, has becoming a really bad habit.

A peaceful year is passing by.

September is here.

Fast right? How time flies.

Yet, another frustrating thing happened.

What the shit is this, when I wanted a peaceful year?

I find myself getting emotionally attached to you.

I don't want this to happen again.

What if you're like him?

You end up throwing me aside once again, when we are close?

I don't wanna think about the future.

Cuz I know for me, good things never seem to last. AT ALL.

Pretty Boy.

2011-08-20T00:18:00.003+08:00

It ends with E24A already.

The last day together was a sweet departure.

I believe we will still be together even after 3 years, wouldn't we? :)

I can't believe that I actually really cried on the last day.

I dislike change and change is nearing so fast.

People I adore leaving me so fast.

Time really flies when you are enjoying.

I can't help but to agree so much with this.

I just wish.

We would still be in contact even we are in different places, meeting different people.

Control.

2011-08-05T11:48:00.003+08:00

I'm here again to vent all my anger and frustration.

I'm so sorry.

I should have known.

Since sec1, I should have known.

I should have seen it.

Whatever I say, will only piss people off.

I should have realised it.

Sadly, I failed to.

Until today, I'm so not going to argue with someone else.

Even how much I wanted to.

Nothing good comes out from my mouth.

One thing I know.

I controlled my tears that welled up in my eyes.

That's the first.

I don't want to seem like someone who cry over such a trivial thing.

I don't want to seem weak.

I don't want to seem like I can't take criticism well.

I so much wanted to curl up in bed and cry.

I simply can't.

I don't want people think that that's the way to pull me down.

Closure.

2011-08-02T23:55:00.004+08:00

My best brother. :)

The last time I updated this space was so long time ago.

I apologise for neglecting this little space here where I was spill my emotions to.

14 weeks together E24A was indeed a memorable one.
But sad to say, everything is ending.

I can't help but feel sad about it.

I finally found some awesome friends and we can only go this far.

Go this far as a class.

I do have to say, this bunch of people indeed made me smile and laugh alot than I used to.

I'm thankful for that, I didn't want the united bond we had to just end like this after 4mths.

Good things also do come to a end right?

Maybe I couldn't stop the school from separating us.

But future meetings, I do hope can make us stronger than before.

I have been feeling quite emotional recently.

How much I didn't want to admit it, twitter has been the only thing I can put my emotions into.

I got over it, but let's just say.

During this period, memories do come back.

I always hope things would be slightly different, if he didn't know.

Sadly to say, it didn't affect him much.

He will never know, how much it affects me even until now.

Even after 4 years.

Please let it pass. So I can go back into my normal life, without you.

Actually, there's no 'you' to start with.

It was just me all along.

But you still constantly reminds me of everything.

Everything single memory we once had, 4 years ago.

People said that forgetting some memories is hard. Truth is, remembering it always hurts even more.

Emotional me.

2011-07-08T09:17:00.002+08:00

I can't help but feel this way.
I can't help but feel that my friends have distanced themselves from me.
I can't help to see that my other friends got closer and I'm like so out of place.
I want everyone to be closer to me.
I don't want to feel so out of place anymore.
I try to use my smiles to hide how much I feel like crying.

I try to hide it so that they don't realise that I'm hurting inside.

I don't want them to know entirely that such a small thing affected me so much.

So much that even when the topic arises, I wanted to cry.

I wanted so much to let them know.

But so much so it's not up to me at all.

Distance don't matter.

2011-06-20T23:24:00.002+08:00

Distance don't matter, do they?

When does it always happen when I want to give in my everything,

you just push me away?

When I push you away,

it makes me a whole lot guiltier.

I don't know what to feel around you.

Guilty?

Paranoid?

Bitchy?

Worried?

I like it alot when you call me silly.

Now I was wondering,

do you really want me back?

That's all I want to ask.

Forbidden memories.

2011-06-15T13:11:00.002+08:00

So much time has passed.

So much chances passed by as well.

What can be done to those chances and time that passed by?

I knew it so well by heart, that my actions are not supposed to be forgiven.

Yet, time and time again, you forgave me.

Forgave me so many times cuz you believe in me.

Yet I keep letting you down.

I'm so sorry for what I have said and done.

I know time couldn't turn back.

I know saying sorry wouldn't make everything better.

So please, dont.

Dont forgive me for what I have done.

Don't call me silly anymore.

I will miss how we are before.

Before all my harsh actions and words hurt you.

Teenage memories.

2011-05-12T09:51:00.000+08:00

Teenage memories. (:

Really really miss those times together with my clique and class.

Time really flies right?

Blink of an eye, we're all walking different directions.

I promise I'll remember every single detail.

Every birthday we celebrate together.

Every outing we had.

Every h2h talk we had.

Every memory we had together.

I miss you girls.

Please don't cry.

2011-04-23T02:00:00.002+08:00

I know it's gonna be a ranting post this time.
I got many things on my mind now.
And it's spinning around.
Making me more and more frustrated.

I really want to find some answer.
I was really wondering what am I to you?
Someone for you to lean on when you're down.
Someone who's merely there you need her.
A friend who is merely a friend.
I want nothing more.
I know it's selfish to want to have you all to myself.
I actually do like the way when you say you like my type of girls.
I actually do like it when you say you miss me.
Thou I have been jokingly say I don't, you know it isn't true.
Why do I have to experience this again and again?
At the first time, when he ask me whether do I like him, I should have said yes.
Now the second time, when he ask me whether we want to meet, I should have said yes.
Maybe first, you and me would have a different ending.
Maybe second, you wouldn't end up hurting cuz you're with another girl.

How dumb I was.
Cuz there's too many maybes.
This is what I call no fate.
Even first, I said yes. You may end up with her, cuz you and her have a longer history.
Even second, I said yes. You may end up with her, cuz you know her longer.

I have lost so many people now.
What's the point of crying now?
Can you tell me now?
Tell me it's okay and don't cry?
Can you really tell me, everything will be alright?
But, everything isn't alright.

New life.

2011-04-21T19:50:00.005+08:00

Earthlings ah earthlings!

omg, poly life is really tiring! ):

Really have to adapt to new school life soon!
Have to go now! :D

I love my new poly friends! :D

June, Meiting, Rachel, Renee, Kimberly, Weilin, Tricia! :D

Say you need me.

2011-04-12T01:02:00.008+08:00

Earthlings ah. I don't think people really look at this blog anymore. Just irritating bugs and viruses. -.- Those Sally, Anne who tags at this blog who dont know what.

AHHHHH. Its past 12 now, so 1 more day to orientation. I feellike killing myself. I'm afraid for so many things. All boys class? Self intros? Argh, hate self intros the most. ): Need to sleep soon. My eyes felt like they had been punched -.- Before that, I need to scold people.

Hey, who do you think you are? Stop being a obsessed freak. You didnt let me go, you know? You just make me hate you more. I'm one xmm? Way to go. (: I don't really give a damn now, so get jealous all you want.

Now you. Yeah, I have to admit. hate your cold attitude towards me. I know I push you away when you cared for me. You know what? I really didn't want anymore misunderstandings from her. I tried this once. It's not really nice you know? I don't know how she's like, and I don't care. You're just like them. What you mean when you like me? Fuck you seriously. Don't think these words hold no meaning. Maybe just to you.

xoxo. /♥

Strawberry kiss.

2011-03-30T23:50:00.004+08:00

Hiya earthlings~ Sorry didnt update, was working. Had much eating fun at 313 everyday. (:
I guess it's goodbye and the end. Didnt expect it would be so soon to say this. But you know, Im sick of people throwing accusing fingers at me. I ain't a guy-snatcher nor a third party. I tried it once, and thats enough. I don't wish another accusing finger pokes into my face, telling me to fuck off. I'm sick and tired. It's not I dont wanna try. It's cuz I have tried before.

Empty promises.

2011-03-26T01:11:00.002+08:00

Hiya earthlings.

I know it has been very long since I last updated.

It has been really busy for me these few weeks you know?

I have met many many great people in short 3 months.

Maybe working life is way harder than studying.

But, somtimes I really wished school already started.

I miss my friends alot, thou we still have frequent outings. (:

Workmates are supa friendly and good to me.

I miss some of them too, since I got transfered here and there.

And, there's this person I met on audi.

He's some great guy too. (:

Wow. More and more people are added into my life.

Before this 3 working months, I was still kinda off mood.

Cuz someone left?

Yeh kind of.

Someone leftt, and things between us couldn't be the same anymore.
I tried. But sometimes, even hard work dont help.

I just we from good friends into strangers.

That's how life works.

People come and go.

Some people come and stay in your life forever, even you dont want them to.

Some people come and left as soon as they came, even you want them to stay.

Big gathering, warm faces.

2011-02-20T22:17:00.003+08:00

hehehehe earthlings!
Got back from ms brenda's house! :D
Miss her so much~

As usual: Eat, chitchat and play!
Ate pizza and pasta! :D
Played a game as well.
Since Im from th 2006 lot, there's also the 2004 there too!
AND ALSO played with Keia and Kagan! :D
Cute kiddsssssss . :D

Okieokie, heng tmr need not work so early! (:
Ahnyong! Short post yeah? (:

Unchained love.

2011-02-20T00:21:00.003+08:00

Aliens and earthlings! :D
I had a long week, and finally have my off-day tmr! :D
Hehehehe!
I'm a happygirl94 ! :D

I'm currently obsessed with DREAM HIGH!
Omg, a srlyyyyyyy naise JYP drama! ^^
Heheh.
A must-watch, my friends all obsessed!
JYPNation jjang okie!?

Finally got a load-off from my heart just now.
Just felt lighter?
There have been my heartfelt words, that I cant really say out.
Cuz you know why?
Probably will not understand, and tries to say I shouldnt think this way.
I dont want those words to come out, so I rather keep them in my heart.
Why say, when you already expected the outcome?

Kiddos, I gotta you know browse thru fb awhile.
And sleep!
Finally can sleep in le T_T
Looking forward in seeing Ms Brenda tmr and 6-1 ! :D
hehe, so long never meet up! ):
Not bad ah, people already lost contact.
We still meeting at tchr house X:

Crapping too much, buai alienearthling. :D

I dream high.

2011-02-13T23:49:00.000+08:00

Nihao earthlings! :D

In a exceptionally good mood today!

Weeeee~

Class outing to Marina Barrage! :D

Saw classmates with weird hairstyles :X

Miss the class so much!

I was laughing lika mad woman today!

Hadnt have this kind of feeling for A LONG TIME.

Heh, Meowmeow came too! ^^

Happy max to see her!

As usual, I asked her : "有没有想我?!"

Of cuz, I'm her best ahstone! :X

Bhb max.

Played blackjack in th middle of th walkway :X

The wind is so effing big that I keep eating my hair! ):

Drinks fly around! Omg. -.-

Then pei Zarinar go fly kite ! :X

She damn obsessed, I tell you.

She keep say: "我的KITE!怎么办?!"

Hehehe, but bitch left early for steamboat at cousin's house.

If not, I'm sure she'll enjoy it alot! :D

Ohya, pix are all on facebook okay!

Unglams alot ley, thanks to ongting :X

Okie, I gotta go.

Schoool tmr ):

Makes me depressed that my off-day ended like tht.

But, I miss Agnes jie they all!

Heh.

Ahnyong, miss me okie? ^^

It sucks, you know, watching someone you love change into someone you don't even know anymore.

Love is...

2011-02-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wondered if you hadn't that someone;

Maybe your life wouldn't be the same anymore?

Or maybe you may realised that he will be your soulmate?

Many a times, we wonder all these questions so much.

But we hadn't actually look around us, to see if that someone has arrived.

I wish you would have keep me from leaving.

I wish you didn't leave me cuz of another girl.

I wish you would hold my hand forever.

I wish our love doesn't have an expiry date.

I wish I could melt in your embrace.

I wish you will die if I left you.

I wish you will regret for not choosing me.

I wish you will want me again.

I wish you are missing everything about me right now.

I wish you will miss my voice, my touch and my face.

I wish you will I love you right now.

Learn it the hard way.

2011-01-20T21:48:00.000+08:00

Aliens, nihaooooo. :)
I know I hadn't been regularly blogging ):
As you know, this blog used to have someone reading it in the morning.
Now?
Don't think so anymore.

Yeah, got sick lately.
Currently just recovered from high fever.
But still witht this flu and cough ):
Cut my fringe just now.
And I guess, I'm off to continue work tmr (:
After a 3 day leave, Thanks Agnes jie! ^^

I'm going to watch my show and cry.
Since I'm feeling rather moody these days.
And I don't know why.
Ahnyong (:

Learning things the hard way, will make you grow up.
And I learnt that things are just the way it is.

Keep dreaming upside down.

2011-01-14T23:56:00.000+08:00

Aliens. :)
My knee is frigging painful now.
Currently putting on ice to make it less painful. ):

Suddenly leg numb and fell during work today.
And I think I sprained my knee.
Okie, this sucks. -.-
Damn embarrassing.
Didn't care much.
Okie, on the phone with my bitch.
She's irritating me NOW. tsk.

I find no more interest of that site.
Starting, I find the site boring.
But, after meeting you in that dumb site.
It's a NOT BAD site afterall.
Now, it's back to square one.
I don't care about that dumb site.
And I hate it now.
It's how we started and there's no ending.

Choices and decisions.

2011-01-13T00:31:00.000+08:00

Aliens! :D
Hehehe.
Currently on phone with tingting ! :D

Getting over my results and totally prepared to start my life in rp :x
Moving on to choose courses we like (:
But it's giving us major headaches. ):
really in a total dilemma. ): rah.
Howwwwww! Ottoke! ):

Whatever. I gonna make the last few choices and be off to bed :D
Hehehe.
Ahnyong~

I'm not jealous.
I just care.
I don't miss you.
I miss us and what we used to be.

Disappointment.

2011-01-11T01:52:00.000+08:00

Earthlings and aliens.
I'm seriously depressed maximum.
I disappointed myself so much, that I hate myself.

Don't wanna elaborate much.
It's simply sucky ttm,
I really hope there's still hope for me.
Really, desperately.
Okie, gotta jet.
Ahnyong .
If miracles really do happen..

Nervoussssssss.

2011-01-10T00:45:00.000+08:00

Earthlings. :D
Sorry for not blogging these days. ):
I'm finally working and I like my workmates! :D

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I'm gettting my results LATER.
And I'm dead nervous and scared.
Freaking out and paranoid.
And now, I think about what choices I need make.
TWELVE . wtf.

Hais.
I hope everything will be okay.. ):
WILL BE GOOD.
Ahnyonggggg. (:

Tears don't lie.

2011-01-05T20:52:00.000+08:00

Hiya earthlings :D

Currently, feeling nervous.

And for people who know me well, side effects for Samantha when she's nervous is scary...

I'm working tomorrow. (LIKE FINALLY :x)

Feeling a little nervous, but nvm nar. :D

New experience, I hope not so bad ? :D

Hmm, think I have to sleep a little early tonight. (:

Mm, off to rot bah :D

Teeeeheeee.

Ahnyongggggg. <:

Now, I keep wonder.

Wondering if you still visits my blog, even we don't talk anymore.

I'm singing, singing songs that might make me cry.

Singing songs that I don't used to listen alot.

I don't cry anymore.

I'm creating more happiness for myself.

But I still wonder, do you meant it when you say you miss me?

You like me?

All these words don't count anymore.

We missed the timing and time will never turn back.

Blame it.

Blame that fate only allows us to meet.

But not fall in love.

Photogenic love.

2011-01-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

Earthlings! :D
Tomorrow's school day.
AND I MISS SCHOOL SO MUCH. ):

Went msia today to see my cousins when my mum went to do her hair.
Had fun otw to their house when on the car.
Laughing with my uncle, when I was giving him ideas on names for his future baby :X
Teeeeheeeee.
Had dinner and came home cuz my sist has school :X
Kekekeke. Evil much.

Unexpected things happen at unexpected times.
I actually expected it.
I would maybe want to put an end to everything NOW.
Okie, I gotta jet.
Ahnyong people, miss me ! :D

People come and go in your life.
It's so typical that I don't even find it unexpected.
People look at you and judge you.
You only know me.
You don't know my story.
So don't judge me.

Personality check.

2011-01-03T01:16:00.000+08:00

EARTHLINGS nihaooo.
Okie, was webcamming with my bitch AGAIN.
And was talking so hilarious stuffs that made me cracked up :X
Lighten up my mood abit :)

WOW.WOW.WOW.
Hear some news from bitch.
Expected that he was TOP STUDENT for N LEVELS :)
He so clever, just dont want study and be ah beng ! tsk.
ANDANDAND.
HAHAHAHA, I finally finished the whole show of 下一站，幸福.
Cried so much for this show, and made me did alot of thinking.
Emotional rush and stuffs. ):
The songs also so sad and meaningful.
Made me really felt that touched and stuffs.

Okie, people has been complaining that my blog is EMO. (Monsterpig)
On another note, I wasn't allowed to scold this best friend of my best friend.
HAHAHA. But she will die earlier than me like I told bitch :X
So I can scold her :x

Ahhhhhhhhh, feeling rather moody again.
Gotta sleep, tmr going msia! :D
Hehehe, got to see my cousins again! :D
Me and my bitch miss school so much.
Joking around with random birds :X
Hehehe.
P.S: I got split personality. :X
Ahnyong!!!

Tears and Rain.

2011-01-02T00:09:00.000+08:00

Today's the first day of the year.
People will be expecting that the bad year has passed and a better one will come.
But for me, I doubt so.

Today went cycling with my mum, sister and Judia jiejie's family. (:
Hahaha, fun max.
Did some pondering during cycling.
So was rather sad, and nearly rammed into other people ):
I dont know why am I upset, cuz I cant find a reason.
So I guess today's post will also a short one. (:

Currently webcamming with my bitch, :D
I guess I shouldn't look forward to any of your smses anymore.
Shouldn't be even waiting for it.
And I always thought maybe this year MIGHT be a lil different.
But now, I guess it'll be pretty much the same.
Same lonely, crappy year.
I don't wanna look forward to Valentines or even my birthday anymore.
I find no more reasons anymore.
So all I have to say is.
Maybe I have believed too much.
Maybe I shouldn't take your words too seriously.
The pathetic crying one is always me.

Anws, last long monster pig. (:
Ahnyong!
Papa forcing me to off! ):

New year, new resolutions.

2010-12-31T20:09:00.000+08:00

Earthlings! <:

Today's the last day of 2010.

So, according to my tradition,

I'll post my thanks to every person who made me smile this year. (:

So did I made you smile this year? ^^

First thing first, Idk why.

I was in a pretty bad mood this afternoon when sms-ing that pig.

So was rather fed up. ):

Cuz in my mind, I dont know whether the new year is gonna be okay for me.

Or just another crappy year like this year.

So, that's what making so effing pissed offf. ):

So, I'll start now. (:

3G/4G:

I really happy to have you all as a class.

You brought me so many wonderful memories.

And I'm really happy I'm able to be your vice-chairman!

I'll miss all the Amaths lessons and LCE lessons so much okie?!

Love ya 4G!♥

Mrs Ng:

MEOWMEOW.

I will miss you alot too!

My best CT in my secondary school life.

I'll always remember how you hug me when I cry.

How you always encourage me when I can't continue anymore.

I love you meow! ♥

RANDOM:

Hiya girls, you're all the best friends I can find in my life.

Thank you for listening to me crap everytime I feel like shit.

Sometimes you girls really drive me crazy.

You all can force me say what making me sad or angry.

Without you girls, I dont know how I'll be able to survive my last year in school.

Thankyou and we'll must meet up soon! ♥

Ongting:

Whey Sumo! <:

You're laoda I know.

I like holding your hand while walking around school.

I'll always miss the investigations we do during Amaths lessons! x:

How we always sing during Amaths lessons.

How we always duet for "Saying I Love You".

You're always the one who will listen to me sing xD

Hehehe, I love you okay. ♥

I'll remember your fantastic driving skills that got me banged into a fence x: !

Yiqing:

Bitch!

You ah, I hope I'll be always there for you.

When you want to crap, or you want cry.

I will always cherish this friendship between us.

Even thou, you used to hate me okay! X:

And, like what we wanted.

We made it up to the headlines every year for our class photos! :D

Please dont suan me anymore about the previous crushes I have okie.

I know you most proest okay. ._.

Meet up soon, we needa catch up ALOT. ♥

Kalinda:

Laogonggggggg.

You are always there for me when I needed help.

Esp when I was so troubled.

I know you dont like to talk on th phone, but you still listen to me crap and cry for 2 hours.

You're always the peacemaker between us.

Your cute and weird antics I'll always remember.

Next time come my house, I'll still let you wash face and you-know-what okay! ♥

Zarinar:

QAD!

You always scold me on twitter saying I'm having a bitch fit.

I know whenever we talk on the phone, we'll most likely quarrel x:

I'll always remember going to your house cooking.

I know my temper sometimes drive you crazy okie? x)

Next time, anything can tell me.

I'll always be here okie? ♥

Huipeng:

UNDERPASS PAPA.

Sorry for the past misunderstandings okay!

I next time treat you with DONG GUA CHA X:

Suxian:

MY BELOVED SUNNNNNNNN. ♥

Omg, I'll definitely miss you so much.

I'll miss singing with you on the phone.

Listening to us off-key and laugh about it.

Listen to you complain that your voice is too man. :x

How we investigate about that asshole's thingy.

Stalking people on fb to get clues.

How you give me lectures.

Eh, we must sing soon ley.

If not, all lousy le.. ):

Sherlene:

Laopooooo. ♥

Although we hardly talk, but hor you also always listen to me crap.

Today if can, listen to me crap about the latest crap in me okie? ):

You kept all my secrets close and listen to me cry after I crap.

Next time also need to listen to me crap okie?? ):

Don't get so obsessed to W, and forget me x:

Huiling:

Mama! ♥

You didnt talk to me much this year okay.

Tsk, still call me just now ):

Anyways, I love your epic reactions everytime I say something shocking to you x:

But, I still hate how deaf you are okay! :x

Isabel:

SDD!

I know you'll never this post.

But, nvm.

Thankyou for always there every morning to laugh with me x:

And I miss your laughters and sometimes you tell me stuffs.

Which means you trust me ^^

Mmmm, see you soon okie? ♥

Melvin:

Zhu ah.

I know you also wont be seeing this even you know my blog.

What happened between is long forgotten.

I'll be there for you like I promised.

Don't treat me so cold okie?

You first started calling me zhu de hor.

Be happy and last long. (:

Debbie:

You also wont be seeing this either.

What happened between us, made our relationship so awkward.

We hardly talked now, but I still miss the times when we sms.

Sometimes, I just wish you just continue with that lie.

So I wouldn't know, and we'll continue it this way.

Stay happy and don't forget me okie? (:

Sheryl:

Sista! ♥

Eh sometimes you be sucha an ass jiu hao.

Dont be sad cuz you didnt get into F&N like me ^^

Work hard for art, no one will doing your art work anymore okie -.-

Anws, grow tallerr x:

Andy:

Eh mei da mei xiao.

It's really great knowing you.

But hor, Im your elder ley.

respect me yi xia. Dont say i hao qi fu hor!

Hmph, and hor.

Dont keep say my pix not pure colours x:

Kekekeeeeeee.

THANKS FOR ENTERTAINING ME WHEN IM BORED :D

Charlene:

I know you also dont see this either.

BUT THANKS FOR TEACHING ME.

THESE TWO WORDS. x:

SIUTS AND LIERS X:

Nice knowing you! :D

Rexanne:

Nice knowing you too.

I know you and char and top tgt.

You are always the one who agrees with me that TOP is a asshole ^^

I love you!

KC:

I know it's weird thanking you okay?

But although we dont talk already, and maybe sx sees this she may scolding me.

Thanks for the morning calls in the past when I cant wake up for school.

But, you know what.

Dont post those statuses on fb le.

I wont give a damn about you anymore.

Sorry.

Hailey:

JIE!

Im happy that every year you will still meet up with me once.

Which is near my birthday.

You meet me and ling and we had lunch and chatted.

You are always here for me.

Giving me the best advices for me.

Really happy to know you 3 years ago (:

I love you jie! ♥

Andre:

Monster pig! ♥

You're the last.

Cuz you're the last I know before this stupid year ends.

So, thanks for all th stupid things you tell me.

Which made very happy that you're in my life (:

Before this stupid year ends. :x

Fear not. If we have the chance. if you have the chance.

We will meet one day.

Thanks for everything.

You can don't treat me well anymore (:

I finally thank everyone (HOPEFULLY).

Hope that the year will be a good one ahead for me.

And I already had a bad start for 2011.

Currently webcamming with my bitch!

Spending it with her is way better than waiting for your sms. (:

Ahnyong! good year to those who reads my blog! ^^

You're my honey.

2010-12-30T23:27:00.000+08:00

Earthlings! :D
I guess I'm fine after crying last night till 5am? ><
Now, to me.
Crying is just a way to release my feelings. (:
Am I right? ><

Had been watching dramas every night.
Crying when watching.
A not bad show! :D
Had a weird chat with monster pig.
Now, I think we like awkward.
But he says no! ):
SO idkkkkkkk. ):

My bitch is finally back in Singapore.
LIKE FINALLY.
I miss her so much.
Results are coming out soon.
I got a feeling I might cry out of stress.
Shit me.
Okie, I'm gonna watch dramas soooon. <:
Monster pig!
WHY WEIRDWEIRD ! ):
Ahnyong!!!

Weakling.

2010-12-29T23:47:00.000+08:00

Earthlings.
Today's a fun day with my girls.
But now, it's totally ruined.
I didn't know that I have such a image.

I feel like crying now.
But everytime, I feel like crying.
I'll always remember what he said to me,
"Crying don't help, why cry?"
I'm trying to stop them from flowing.
If I stopped crying, does that mean I have grown up?
If I stopped crying, does that mean I can handle emotional problems better?

My friends know I cry too easily.
My friends know whether I have stuffs on my mind, I tend to not pay attention.
Because my friends know me too well, they tend to fish out what I had in mind.
How many times had I cried this year?
Endless times.
Different reasons each time.
I cried cuz of my Os.
I cried cuz of friendship problems.
I cried cuz my friend was bullied.
I cried cuz I badly burnt my hand.
I cried cuz I can't catch up with schoolwork.
I cried cuz of Sunmi.
I cried cuz of dramas.
Now, can I stop crying?
I'm not matured enough?
Maybe whatever efforts I put in, was still not enough...

Kitty kitten.

2010-12-29T00:34:00.000+08:00

Hiya earthlings. <:

Not a very much good day today. ):

Went for a interview today.

RAH. srly.

Okie, she totally made me so stun.

I was like cui in my heart, but my face is still smiling ._.

I was waiting and waiting while sms-ing that pig.

And I came earlier mind you!

Why let someone else go first?!

Screw you man.

Going for a interview tmr AGAIN.

Thanks laopo for helping.

And I'll be meeting my babes! :D

Rahhh, I tot compass point ):

Sadded much, gonna go there myself after interview.

Gonna go catch my show while sms-ing that pig.

So kelian everyday got intensive.

If it's me, I would have died long ago. ):

Ahnyonggggg. ^^

Floods of tears.

2010-12-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

Earthlingssssss.

I know picture of today is cuteeee!

Kekeke, I like this pix as well !

Mmm, th date with my girls have been officially confirmed!

Whoop, I miss them so much.

Finally can sit down and catch up and take pix. :D

My qingqing is finally coming back! ^^

So excited eh? X:

Pretty much, I'm going for a interview tmr. (FINALLY?)

After the last one, I feel extremely screwed up. (tsk.)

Maybe it's time for me to earn some money and save up.

FOR MY KOREA TRIP! KEKEKEKE. xD

I've dreaming about this for a long time! ):

So, I had begun with my art on the lighter.

It still looks like crap :X

I saw some CCA pix, and i miss having the SDMA camps! ):

Staying over in school was so fun!

I still rmb running arnd in school cuz we're the only ones.

I also rmb watching Final Destination 3 with them as well.

I ALWAYS RMB HOW ME AND HUILING SMACK TINGYONG when something erxin came.

Memories ah memories.

I used to want graduate early.

Now not so much I guess.

This monster pig is so bad. ):

I'm getting "famous" cuz of this pig.. ):

Hmph, I dont wanttttttttttt. RAHH.

keke, okay lah.

I gotta jet !

Ahnyong people! :D

MONSTERPIGISSOBAD.

Missing you.

2010-12-27T00:08:00.000+08:00

Hiya earthlings!

Gonna be a short post today.

Can't online any further.

Hmmm, ate steamboat and I'm full max.

Nothing seem to go into my mind today.

So this monster pig posted "my" pix on his blog!

Hmph! I'm offffffff.

Last Christmas.

2010-12-26T02:35:00.000+08:00

Hiya earthlings! (:

It's now 3.06am.

AND IM WIDE AWAKE.

I know people dont blog during this time.

I'm still energetic.

Had been listening to "Last Christmas", singing it as well.

Keke, I know I sing all th time.

Mmm, called Kalinda and we chatted awhile.

It's really had been awhile I last talked to her.

Miss her laughters and randomness. x:

Hehe, we might be meeting up next wed?

Miss Random, miss 4G. ):

Like what that chancellor says.

I miss sitting in the classroom with them. (Thou I'm forever in the first row. ): )

I miss shouting across the classroom. (I always do that x: )

I miss doing sign language or mouthing my messages to RANDOM. (They always dont understand, and I don't understand theirs either. )

I miss LCE lessons so much. ( All the laughters and suan-ing. )

I miss being a vice chairman cuz I get to have tchrs' signature. (Hehe, I have a copy! )

I miss 4G, as the most bonded class.

I miss President meow (what chancellor calls her).

AHHHH. I MISS SCHOOL.

Okie, I sound a little naggy here. -.-

Being emotional is simply just being me okay!

But I thought of the endless sad things happened in school makes me sad too.

Like how I was accused of making someone cry, when I didn't say a thing.

How I hugged Yiqing during sec1 bonding campp, when we are sleeping x:

How in the middle of night, I see Yiqing sitting doing sudoku.

How I was bullied by Andy during sec2.

How RANDOM came up, during sec3 june holidays when we are going thru circle properties.

How we had a memorable camp in Pulau Ubin as 3G.

How we won the most bonded class.

How sec4 came, we all separated.

How during retreat, we won captains' ball champions!

I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THE WHOLE CLASS CROWD ARND AND SING.

AIYAH, SO MANY MEMORIES. ):

I go orh le ):

Ahnyonggggggg.

I hate monster pig! ):

I'll be back.

2010-12-24T19:32:00.000+08:00

Hiya earthlings.
I'm feeling much much better today.
But, it just sucks.
Cuz, this year is a lonely Christmas.

Christmas is tomorrow.
Yet, I dont really have the Christmassy feeling. ):
So, I guess I'll be just watching tv (:
Don't call me depressed.
Cuz, I'll really fine being alone.
I had been alone for my 16 years of life.
Being alone on Valentines and Christmas.
This year don't make any difference anymore.
I'm stronger every year, I'll be fine.

Currently listening to "I'll be back".
Obviously, I'm obsessed with love songs during Christmas.
That's so typical of Samantha eh?
Listening to "This Christmas", makes me want to fall in love.
Listening to "Kiss Me", makes me feel like being in love.
Listening to "Last Christmas", makes me feel like giving my heart this year wont help.
Listening to "I'll be back", makes me stronger.
Cuz there's a sentence goes:
"In my world, I'm your boy; you're my girl."

Lastly, Merry Christmas Eve to all couples out there and friends! :D
I hope you had a enjoyable day!
Ahnyong! (:

It's in the rain.

2010-12-23T16:16:00.000+08:00

Hiya, cut the formalities.

I know it's a little early that I blog now.

Cuz there are too much crap on my mind NOW and I need it off.

So I'm sure it's pretty much a emotional and crappy post.

I don't have readers so I don't give a damn either.

Maybe I'll find myself crying after this post.

But, after the rain , the sunshine will come..

I don't really understand why.

Why can he stirred up so many emotions in me?

Why can he bring back so many memories that he doesn't even remember and I'm the only one doing the remembering?

If nothing can bring us together, memories can.

If memories can't, then what's the point of me remembering?

我承认我成为你动了一点心.

但,我从来没把我的心给你.

时机不对,才让我们失去彼此,错过对方.

那是无法挽回的一件事.

我知道自己很傻,因为自己想起以前.

我还是会无缘无故掉下我的眼泪.

我真的不想再过这样的生活了...

Everyone knows that I love the rain.

But, no one knows why.

Because, the rain comforts me whenever I'm sad.

Seeing every single raindrop makes me happy.

Seeing every single raindrop makes me feel not alone.

It's like the rain washes every trouble and every thought away.

But tears still fall, like rain.

They won't fall forever.

In the day, it flows.

Things will come.

Things will go.

I don't wanna be alone this christmas.

2010-12-22T00:20:00.001+08:00

Hiya, (:
okay, just a short post and i definitely miss my friends like mad. ):
I miss sitting in class with 4G most.
And results are coming out soon.

mmmm, life's practically boring.
And to be honest, I HATE ANDY KE JUN KANG.
He says he's happy that he will made it to my headline xD
HHAHAHAHA.
Laxy to blog.
kthxbai.

Ounce of courage.

2010-12-19T02:13:00.000+08:00

Hiya earthlings! (:
Life's still pretty much th same (:
Everyday went mama's workplace.
To practice nail filing and nail art!
Keke, I mastered a lil nail art! ^^

I'm currently watching a late night show on tv! (Y)
Hais, sad to think that actually I'm rotting at home ):
Okie, gotta continue w th show! ^^
Ahnyong! (:

It meant nothing.

2010-12-17T01:57:00.000+08:00

Hie earthlings (:
Nothing to do much at home.
But obviously, I'm having weird flashbacks.

Maybe it's gonna be a real emotional post.
I know I'm gonna be rambling.
And that person wouldn't possibly care.
Ahh.

To be exact, I hadn't really had a real conversation with that person.
No doubt, everything just surrounded with msn chats.
Later, it just reduces to lesser msn.
It doesn't bother me before, but now.
Maybe knowing having an illness, really makes me worry alot.
Later on, SMSes and chats was lesser.
We reduced to not talking anymore.
Ha. How funny.
Telling me that particular sentence when we first met.
Really left a deep impression.
I even have the thought of really going with what was said.
I didn't in the end duh.
Hahaha, I wrote such a nice story eh? Maybe i could ? XD
Now, not replying my smses, msn being so cold.
Really scares me.
Wondering if maybe one day, that pig is gonna leave.
Haha, we don't have a past nor a future.
Just then, whatever he said lingers in mind.

Missing your voice.
Missing your face.
Missing every single thing of you.
I just have to let you roam the world you belong.
Cuz we're never from the same world before. (:

WONDER.

2010-12-15T04:05:00.000+08:00

Hiya earthings! (:
I know it's kinda crazy and weird for me to be wide awake now. ):
It's 4.05am, but I just can't get to sleep.
It's like insomnia had already got back to me aft th genting trip ):
Argh, don't like it.

Fulfilled my dream during genting trip!
Finally watched Wondergirls' concert w my family! <3
It was totally a surprise!
Didn't know that my sist could actually keep her mouth shut about it! :x
Hehehe, still indulging in the voices of my girls.
It was a full house that day!
And my girls definitely worked hard and gave us a blast! ^^

Something is bothering me.
I hadn't had this feeling for awhile and it's back.
Shoot. Aish. What crap is this?
Feeling sourish for someone whom I know just merely a year isn't cool.
And idk why am I feeling this way either.
Pretty much sucked ttm.
Boy, does your love really that limited?
Sometimes, I do miss you.

Ahnyong, gonna try grab some sleep (:
Miss me!

Staring blankly.

2010-11-27T22:04:00.000+08:00

Hiya earthlings! :D
Kinda tired today, thou I woke at 1+.
I'm still waiting for the phone call.
Phone call. Phone call. Phone call.

Suddenly to me, holidays dont mean anything.
I feel like working, playing and singing.
I HAVE NO MONEY FOR KBOX. ):
Have been singing in house like a maddie.
Whoopwhoop! ♥

I dont know why.
But Im endng this post early.
I dont feel like blogging and there's nothing for me to blog about.
Just some emotions running through me when I sat in car.
Okie, ahnyong. (:

Certain emotions flowed through me this night.
Some feelings I hadn't felt for a very long time.
Suddenly now, it's like the past.
And when the car passed by buildings and trees, memories and memories.
That's what I had left.
That's what I have been holding onto.
We never started.
I just felt that I lost you, when you stopped talking to me.
Don't say sorry. Don't feel guilty.
What happened between me and you.
It's a lifelong lesson for me.

xoxo. /♥

Feelings gone.

2010-11-26T22:25:00.000+08:00

Im in no mood to say hello or wtv shit.

okay, I may sound extremely happy on msn.

But please, inside?

Extremely pissed and upset.

IT DONT WORK. IT DONT WORK.

WHICH PART YOU DONT UNDERSTAND?!

CALL YOURSELF A STUDENT?

SCREW YOU.

AHHHHHHH.

The other one.

Cant differciate what's HATE and ANGRY. -.-

Shit all of them.

Shit all these.

Dont feel like blogging.

Ciaos.

xoxo. /♥

Emotional shits.

2010-11-25T20:59:00.000+08:00

Hiyaaa earthlings! (:

Based on my own assumptions, my blog DONT have high readership. -.-

Yes, that assumption is highly true.

I guess, this will just be me and myself :D

Life's pretty boring lately.
Facebook, MSN, Audi.

Omg, how no life can I get? ._.

Okayyyy, class chalet is coming.

BUT, aft class chalet ):

Nothing !

Lately, I think there's seriously smth wrong with me.

Okie, the appearance is nothing wrong.

SOMETHING INSIDE ME IS SERIOUSLY WRONG.

and idk what's wrong... ):

I know its kinda weird for me to be still think about that ass when it's like 3years ago.

It used to invite tears, it still invites tears.

Screw it.

I thought I would be angry over it.

Or even scolding vulgarities.

None of that is happening.

To say that, actually I seriously hate him ttm. -.-

Okie, on th other hand. Someone is constantly irritating me.

PLEASE LAH, GROW UP.

IF YOU THINK THIS IS GOING TO THE BEST THING THAT CAN COME OUT FROM YOUR EFFFING MOUTH, YOU BETTER SHUT IT UP.

Im not going to waste my saliva and time scolding you here.

Its going to dirty my blog FOREVER.

SORRYs dont do the trick dude.

Try next time.

Okay. Enough of ranting.

Ohyeah, knew some new frnds ystd. :D

Supa fun people. :D

Gotta jet!

Ahnyong! :D

xoxo. /♥

Prom.

2010-11-23T18:33:00.000+08:00

Hiya earthlings! :D
I guess I'm back to blogging yeah?!
Just had my prom 4days ago! :D
Whoopwhoop! ♥

Had a fun night with my babes and of cuz, other frnds! (:
Will totally miss the school like hell, and of cuz my dear Mrs Ng! ):
Food, dance performance, lastly.
Disco ! ><
Kekekeke, th dance performance was certainly a success!
I didnt made any mistakes except a small one xD

Now spending time at home with my compy.
Or going out with frnds! :D
Next up.
Class chalet ! :D
Gonna plan budget for food, but Im looking forward to it. (:

Okie guys!
Gotta jet!
Ahnyong!

xoxo. /♥

ITS OVER.

2010-11-13T22:58:00.000+08:00

TEEHEE :D
I FINNALY DUMPED O's !
KEKEKE.

Happy max! (:
It's the first day where I celebrate the torture I have suffered!
Whoop whoop!
Going for my first interview oon Monday. (:
Eggcitied much ? (:
And omg. Prom is coming ! :D
Hehehehe !

Okay kids.
Im webcamming with my qing now! :D
Ahnyong ! :D

xoxo. /♥

Tweettweet.

2010-10-22T02:45:00.001+08:00

Hey people.
As you can see, Os is just freaking 3days away. -.-
How great eh?

Can't seemed to update already, and I've lost my readers?
Maybe I don't even have -.-
Had my practicals this morning.
Did I even mentioned ?
How screwed up it is? ._.
Oh please, now I have to depend on my theory.
Which isn't any better ):

Bless me kay? (:
Oh yeah, I created twitter recently. :D
Out of boredom? Since I have iPhone, I shall put it to full use !
Ok, blog posts nao may be a LIL boring.
Bear with me.
I'll be back ! :X

Ahnyong people!
Miss me!
Inbox me if you want to follow me or you want me to follow you on twitter (:

I can't breathe.

2010-09-27T22:54:00.000+08:00

Omo omo !

Miss A's new mini album is so addicting ! ♥

Kekeke.

Okay, last lap already.

Was pretty busy mugging for 'O's ! ):

HAHAHAHAHA.

Kalinda's birthday was ystd and was a big success!

Ran arnd in AMK hub , fun much ! (:

Keke.

Okay , gotta jet .

Im dead tired. ):

Wanan people.

I wonder when's the next time I update?

xoxo. ♥

I care about you so much.

2010-09-18T00:15:00.000+08:00

Hey people!

I know I haven't been updating this space.

Please, Os are nearing.

Don't expect me to update often.

Or maybe I wouldn't even update anymore ><

School has been hectic.

And I'm starting to study and stuffs (:

Weird things happened in school ):

Life's this way I guess.

Hmmm, retreat was fun!

We are champions! :D

4G is champion ! :D

Teehee :3

ASPs, homework.

Lack of sleep.

Ahhh, irony of life.

38days left ):

I better buck up!
Ahnyong people.

This may be my last post before my Os ! ):

Miss me! <:

xoxo. /♥

Emotional thoughts.

2010-08-29T18:34:00.000+08:00

Hey people. (:
I know, I shouldn't be updating too much.

But today, a sudden urge of emotional thoughts came to me.

And I srly want to say them all out? (:

Will talk about my class meeting tmr then.

Don't you mind me right?

P.S: Have urge to type some emotional stuffs here.

Hope you earthlings out thr like it (:

Sometimes, I do believe there's a end to everything.

Should I call it a expiry date?

Life has one. Food has one. Everything we use have one.

Does love has one?

I always wondered, will one day the love you're holding onto would reach its expiry date?

Wondered if, one day the efforts you put into your love has all gone?

One day, the love you once cherished so much was gone without leaving any trace?

We all do wonder about things like this.

We never stop wondering.

Love deteriorates through time.

But one thing doesn't have expiry dates.

One particular thing, people still hold on.

Whether it's pain or happiness.

It's memories.

Memories allow you to remember all the things you have been through in your life.

So do you remember what happen on the night during your Sec3 adventure camp?

Do you remember what actually happened during the day where you finally gotten your cert?

And do you remember what happened on Valentines' night?

All these are memories you hold onto.

Despite the fact that history can't repeat itself, no matter how much you want to.

You remember them, you'll find yourself living in your memories again.

Memories do not have expiry dates.

They last forever and forever.

You can't forget them.

You don't forget them.

It's for you to keep.

So we have to enjoy the time we spend together.

So in future, we can look back and enjoy those memories together.

xoxo. /♥

Shady Girlz.

2010-08-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

Earthlings! :D

Keke.

Had some great chats with my glutton sister! ♥

Teehee :B

Hmmm, timing has changed to 1pm tmr (:

Still anticipating ! :D

Woooo.

Hope tmr will be a success :D

Keke.

It's th last year, and I really hope whole class will take a lil part in this . (:

Woooooo. ♥

I totally loveee moi classss :D

Hmmmm, sleeping early today? (:

Idk someone, anyone wants to meet for lunch tmr ): ?

Hais. ):

Tsk.

Okay. Ahnyong! :D

I LOVE MY GLUTTON SISTER! ♥

xoxo. /♥

Make it shine.

2010-08-28T00:49:00.000+08:00

Wonderfuls! :D

HOHOHO.

Saw WG's lastest CF! ♥
They are extremely kute and pretty ttm! :D

Hyelim looks pretty tooo! (:

keke, Sohee kewt max! ♥

Miss sunmi! ):

I know she'll also look kewt and pretty in th CF !

They're back in korea! :D

HEHEHE.

Hmmm, tuition tmr ):

Tsk .

OMG.

I'm so looking forward to tchr's day. like every year.

I'm always looking forward!

I think I'll have alot of fun on SUNDAY! :D

xoxo. /♥

Shock.

2010-08-26T14:41:00.000+08:00

Aliens! :D

Tmr is my last paper! (Y)

Okay, aft this is 'O' lvls! ):

Argh.

F&N paper.

Srly I cannot fail liao ._.

Tsk, doing notes naoz. (:

This morning had breakfast with Sherlene @ MAC :D

HAHA. Talked about manymany things. (:

Srly, had many shocks. x.x

Aiyah, nvm uh.

Hmmm, gotta study nao! ):

Ahnyong people :D !

xoxo. /♥

Rainy rainy.

2010-08-24T01:11:00.000+08:00

Earthlings! :D

It's raining like almost everyday! :D

It really keeps me happy <:

Maths paper 2 was okay! :D

Didn't have this confidence for maths once ><

woooooo.
I'm extermely excited naoz! :D

Dk why!

I think I'm super hungry tooo ):

Shit it manzxc, I'm feeling hungry more often these days x:

Hmmmm, shall go and find something to eat.

Mind you people, it's 1.20am naoz :D

keke.

Ahnyong :D

xoxo. /♥

Hurt that turns to disappointment.

2010-08-22T01:01:00.000+08:00

Aliens earthlings! :D

Okay, can I say

My hurt has already turned into total disappointment?

Fine, since I'm so insignificant.

I shouldn't be giving another damn anymore.

Some people are being veryveryvery evil.

Still laughing about my forehead banging incident!

Tsk, tht old man.

Monday's th start of prelims AGAIN.

Ahhhhhhhh.

Finefine, I have been very hardworking.

Constantly reading and everything ! :D

Teeheee :B

Hmmmmm , I really have to buck up.

It's time to show my ability! :D

Alright aliens.
I gottta jet and sleeep.

Tmr's another day for studying! :D

Ahnyong! :D

That constant hurt,

slowly turned into disappointment I had for you.

Suddenly, I realised I wasn't important.

Suddenly, I felt like I wasn't even part of your life.

Because, it strucks me that it's insignificant to you.

xoxo. /♥

Hurt that lingers on.

2010-08-21T00:33:00.000+08:00

Earthlings people aliens.

Today's definitely not getting any better for me.

Wow, can see that 2010 is actually a bad year?

First, nothing can be worser during th ACE programme.

I get on with life, and now back into my life AGAIN.

Later, My chinese results disappointed me.

Now, her words lingered in my mind.

And lastly, it hurt me like nothing else would.

Day went thru okay. (:

Sun actually helped me thru th day. (: ♥

Ah gtg ! Ahnyong :D

You never how much it hurts me.

I didn't know that it strucks you to be unimportant.

But I know that, I'm was never important to you.

xoxo. /♥

Reach for the stars.

2010-08-20T00:17:00.000+08:00

Hey earthlings! (:

I'm back to my old normal self ! :D

Hmmm, I shouldn't still moping about my results? O:

Since I have decided to retake it ! :D

HAHAHA.

Can I say I enjoyed Amaths lesson much?!

Sad to say, I was enjoying a show.

Laughing with qing and zar :D

hehehehe.

Other lessons was boring much. ):

Talking about really ridiculous things in class. :D

Chinese lesson, tchr mainly talked about our results and stuffs.

HAHAHA.

Went home alone.

Had a tiff with zar ):

Omg, surely we like to have it thou.

Aft tht was okay after a phone conf with sx and her!

Hilarious much x:

Okayokay, gotta jet!

currently playing Uno with Chantelle! :D

HAHAHA.

Ahnyong :D

xoxo. /♥

Disappointment.

2010-08-19T00:11:00.000+08:00

Earthlings.
Today is a doublely bad day for me.
Results aren't up to my expectations.
And I cried like there's no tmr.

Yesyesyes.
Call me a crybaby.
I can't help it, when people put high hopes on me right?
And I didn't expected a you-know result. -.-
Gotta thank Mrs Yoga and Mrs Ng for comforting me.
Hugging me and everything.
Cuz at tht point of time, I really cannot stop my tears.
I cried and cried, sx was shocked too.
And congrats too all those who have gotten A1! (:

Im not going to mope and cry anymore.
I decided to retake my chinese too.
Like I said, I need to forget and look forward. (:
I can do it !
Aja Aja. (:

xoxo. /♥

Emotional rush.

2010-08-18T00:41:00.000+08:00

Earthlings. >:

Can I say, today couldn't be any more depressing?

Okay, was moody throughout th entire day.

Having lots and lots of emotional rush in class.

And srly whatthehell, when was the last time, I felt this way?!

Last year.

Hmmm, can I say, they didn't notice at all?
Due to all those constant strong fronts I put on everytime.

They didn't seemed to notice until they read my diary?

Yes, I'm feeling down.

Those salty things fall on their own?

Ah, screw myself.

Tmr I'm getting my chinese 'O' lvl results and english orals.

Screw it man, both on th same day.

Had tht ahbuneh as examiner, suay much -.-

Gotta buck up.

And really hope tmr's pix wun so hard , okay ? ):

I'm feeling weird and down lately.

People just pardon my face okay?

I know it's really black, pale and dull.

Tsk. I will be happy soon. (:

Ahnyong, gotta have some mental preparation for tmr! :D

xoxo. /♥

All I want is love again.

2010-08-16T19:35:00.000+08:00

Heyheyhey earthlings. <:

Okay, I know it's just any other normal day of school.

And it's really sucky to start th week this way.

But end up super funny.

Cuz eventually, it wasn't my fault ><

Lessons like normal only.

Got scoldings first thing in th morning. ):

Physics and Emaths goner liao. ):

Hmm, gonna buck up? That's th only way out I guess.

Okayokay. Was laughing aft Amaths lesson like MAD.

Can I say it was too hilarious that I can't stop laughing?

Omg, now it has been worldwide news! x:

Kekeke.

And nonono.

Not my fault okay?

It's what I call self-admit.

Please lah, it's open!

Open for everyone. (:

Hmmm, shall not talk about it.

Later maybe will laugh until I fall off chair x:

Let's see how things proceed from here :D

Teehee :B

OMGOMGOMG.

I'm currently veryveryvery obsessed with Miss A xD

Heh, they are cool okay!

But Wondergirls still No.1 in my heart uh ♥

Okay people, off to cook rice! (: Ahnyong! <:

And you're just another reminder
of how i'm never quite good enough.

xoxo. /♥

Break it up!

2010-08-14T00:44:00.000+08:00

Earthlings S.O.S !

Chem paper also like okay only. -.-

Went school earlier, to study !

Talked to LKH :D

Went cp to have lunch with Sher, sq, sx and hl ! :D

KFC-ed and talked about old times.

Laughed like mad, thinking about how ridiculous we can be last time x:

Sher and sq left earlier, cuz they wanted to watch SALT ? O:

So left with me , sx and hl.

We talked about chalets.

And alot of things came about. <:

Thenthen, Jeannie came and knocked my head :B

Kewt lah her.

Scare me thou X:

Continue with my story telling and left.

Went library, and 7-eleven!

Hl and sx bought teenage and teens.

1 cover is ss501, 1 is bigbang o:

Keke.

Ahnyong, tuition tmr. :/

Thinking back to the old times,

how great it would be,

if I could turn time back.

xoxo. /♥

Trancetrancetrance.

2010-08-13T08:11:00.000+08:00

Omg sorry ~~people~~ Earthlings!
It's th prelim period and it's busy -.-
Okay.
It's like 8am in th morning, I can't fall back to bed.
Cuz I was awaken aft calling dummy and sx ):

Had my emaths paper1 ystd, and it was damn hard! -.-
Shit it man, how am I going to pass my 'O's this way ._. ?
Physics paper 2 was demoralising toooo ._.
Tsk. Later will be chemistry paper 2 D:
Wish me luck (:

Srly pissed off at some people ._.
Please lah.
No need to show out right?
You are contradicting yourself.
I want to frigging dig out your eyes.
Drilling holes in th screen and back -.-
No need so obvious right?
Since you dw to let H know, dont show it.
Hide it.
You showed it until it says "OMG H! Ah~" -.-
I feel like vomiting.
Want H to know, tell him lo.
Dont act as if, you dont care. (:

Ahnyong, eat some bread and get ready for school I guess. (:
Ltr dummy scold me for not eating ._.
keke, see-ing LKH ltr!
Bye :D

xoxo. /♥

Little experiment.

2010-08-06T23:50:00.000+08:00

Earthlings :D

Keke.

I know it's late at night now.

But I just seemed to sleep now.

Too many things on my mind now.

Firstly, investigations confirmed after several rds of eliminations :D

Hohoho.

Wouldn't have expected this.

Tooo easy to guess, was given too many clues ):

Sian right?! *pouts*

School NDP celebration can say is very ....

M. really wants to save money and time.

No march out. sian die.

Concert was boring tooo ):

No eugene, Our wushu master! ):

No nice wushu to watch le ! ):

Basically, very fun lah.

Cuz we whole class played together.

During PE, had illegal gathering in basketball court.

Super funny okay.

Talking to my girls about stuffs cheer me up!

Teeeheee.

Esp the current topic.
Makes me laugh like mad x:

Qing gave me a scare of my life, when she screamed.

I screamed with her -.-

Initially wanted to shout certain things, but my best frnd's best frnd was thr, so didnt.

Laugh like mad at th idea of shouting tht. x:

keke, zarinar thought we are crazy! :B

Amaths was reading my novel.

While tingting gave me a massage! ♥

Thts all, I think.

Lend kalinda my boyf tee, and she's supposed to keep it in good shape :D

Keke.

Guess that's all.

Dont drilling holes into backs! :B

Ahnyong! :D

xoxo. /♥

Candy boy.

2010-08-04T23:34:00.001+08:00

Earthlings! (:
Tmr is my science practical exams!
OMGOMGOMG.
Hope everything just goes well . ):

Tsk .
Actually, life's pretty mundane for me.
School life is pretty hectic.
I think it's gonna be a pretty short post.
And another investigation work for me to do ! (:
Kekeke.
Okay, I sound pretty evil here.
My last project with tingting is a success!
So I hope it's gonna be a success tooo.
But this time, maybe I working with qing? x:
hehe.

Okay, gonna take a sleep soon.
Promised someone again, someone actually gave me timings for my tonning sessions -.-
Ahnyong people! :D

xoxo. /♥

Wreckage you left.

2010-08-04T00:20:00.000+08:00

Hai earthlings (:

Tmr's there is health check!

Omg, testing my eyesight!

I love it please.
Omg, I sound sick here. -.-

Okay, thr's this bitch PMS-ing please.

Scold scold scold.

I tot you should be encouraging people?

Or you should be trying your best to push us forward?

Not pulling us down with your friggingly nice words.

Oh seriously, let this year be over and done with.

I don't want to see her to be hurt over and over and over again by you.

Neither I want to see her getting hurt,

Or demoralise by your words,

when she's starting to put in effort.

Seriously, without you.

She's far off better.
I'll be far more better too.

Okay, seriously pissed ttm . -.-

Fine, gotta jet.

Sleeping time.
I've actually promised someone to sleep early tonight (:

Ahnyong ! :D

xoxo. /♥

Sugar sugar luv.

2010-08-03T00:06:00.000+08:00

Earthlings! :D
Kekeke.
Prelims is next weeek ! ):
Omg, ):
Okay, 1 happy thing !
SINGFEST IS TOMORROW ! ♥

WONDERGIRLS IS COMING TO TOWN ! :D
HAHAHA.
Extremely happy ttm!
Currently obsessed with other songs naoz :D
Suga luv - Bizniz! <:

Practicals coming.

Note taken : MUST BUY ERASER. -.-

ITS SUNMI DAY ! ♥

Sunmi ah, you left exactly six months ago.

Doing well in your studies?

I'm not so doing well in mine ):

You must ace your exams!

And come back to us!

We'll all be waiting and waiting for your return.

WonderGirls need you to be complete.

You're forever my alien. ♥

Ahnyong peoplee.

Everything is getting weirder.

But I think I'm starting to get used to all these things happening to me. (:

xoxo. /♥

Concidence do happen.

2010-07-31T00:30:00.000+08:00

Keke, hello people.
Didnt go school today.
And I heard from people, it's busy today!
Omg, I should gone school sia.
Why must I feel sick this morning?! ):
They choose the sizes of our class hoodies w/o me! ):
And I left my thumbdrive in school!
Omg, I hope no one takes it home ! ):
Boohooo.

Okayokay.
Naoz, I feeeling way better already.
Monday had to go school yeh (:
Shouldn't be missing lessons.
Next weeek is already th prelims science practicals! ):
Omg, hope I remember everything taff taught me.
He's really good, I really happy he's my lab partner :D
Prelims coming, omgomgomg.

Okay, (:
I gotta jet.
Tmr there is tuition. ):
Hais.
Lectures from my mama again.
About 'O's ._.
Ahnyong. :D

xoxo. /♥

Your place in my heart.

2010-07-30T01:34:00.001+08:00

Kekeke.

Skipped meeting today. (:
I srly dont want to face or see him. "alone"

So disappointed in his actions.

I'm actually feeling useless, cuz I wasn't able to help her.

Omg. The feeling of this.

Ah~

ASP, did nothing actually.

Was playing and joking with Gladys and Zarinar. <:

keke, super epic please.

We were actually talking about our sec2 KL trip :B

How me and Gladys used middle fingers to communicate :D

HAHAHA.

Okay, she bomb-ed me with tht question tooo -.-

Please.

Although, me suspected that too.

But i aint gonna think about it?

Yeah, it's the 'O's please.

Do I look like I have time to think?

Passed my Chemistry and Physics paper for th FIRST time!

omg, I really neeed to emphasise on this :B

I passed my emaths mock paper too. But badly please.

the paper was easy. -.-

tsk.

Okay, gotta jet.
It's like gonna 2am now? -.-

sleepsleepsleep.

Dark circles coming out.

Ahnyong earthlings ! :D

xoxo. /♥

You got me twisted.

2010-07-25T22:14:00.000+08:00

Heyyyyy pretty earthlings ! :D

Hmmmm, school's starting tomorrow.

And I suddenly think that,

WEEKENDS ARE WAY TOO SHORT! D:

Boohoo.

Hmmm, prelim's arnd th corner.

And I'm not so prepared for it ):

Geez, pretty little liars really addicting thou. (:

Keke, had to wait till this wednesday!

I'm kinda annoyed by a guy ._.

This guy is so effing egoistic. -.-

Shit him.

He always thinks girls are bitches, not serious.

Why not he ask himself?

He changes the girl he likes like he changes clothes!
Wtf please.

Look into the mirror, before you start criticising us girls.

You aren't the least of handsome.

You're in army, and you can be effing despo.

Despo despo despo.

How annoying.

Tsk.

Let's not get so annoyed by such people.

I'm annoyed by how people say I'm stubborn.
Yes, I'm stubborn.

But please.

It's me.

It's me, and I like the way I'm.

You don't like.

Dont bother telling me.

I'm used to people calling me stubborn.

And if you like me as a friend, you should be getting used to this.

Everyone has their flaws.

Unless you're perfect, don't ever complain about my stubborness. (:

Ahnyong. :D

xoxo. /♥

So shut up boy.

2010-07-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

Earthlings earthlings.
School's pretty hectic.

And coursework part B 's coming to a end soon . (:

Keke, life's pretty mundane too.

Currently kinda addicted to Miss A's "Bad girl, Good girl" and "Coming down from heaven" .

(: , current addictions ! :D

Shall update some other times thou , gotta chiong!

Jiayoussss! :D

Ahnyong! ♥

xoxo. /♥

Realising that all is just a dream.

2010-07-21T01:10:00.000+08:00

Wei wei earthlings ! :DDDDD

kekeke.

Back for some posting yeh?

Okay!

IM SO SO SO SO ADDICTED TO PRETTY LITTLE LIARS! ♥

KEKEKE.

I love the cast, thou it's a lil messed up.

I love Spencer, Aria, Ezra and Wren ! ♥

Wehehehehehe !

Show's pretty exciting, but I love the books more.

Currently waiting for 'Wanted' ! <:

Some scenes in th books didn't appear, and some scenes in th show didn't appear in th book !

I believe th books thou , since it first started off with th books right? (:

Okayokay, still stuck at episode 4.

And America is alr going to broadcast Episode 7! ):

tsk!

Today's LC is okay ! (:

kekeke.

Answers slightly different from my frnds. ):

But nvm, hope can correct luh.

Gotta jet and take my beauty sleep! (:

Ahnyong! ♥

xoxo. /♥

Come back, will you ?

2010-07-15T20:58:00.000+08:00

Earthlings ! :D
School mundane !
SS ASP IS BORING ! ):

OMGOMGOMG.
MS BRENDA IS IN OUR SCHOOL TODAY !
MISS HER TTM LEY ! ):
OMG, SAW HER AND SMILE ! :D
KEKEKE.

OKAY GTG FOR HMWK ! (:
AHNYONG :D

Sometimes, a heart can't afford to be friends.

And the only way is to walk away.

xoxo ./♥

Sadness flies away on the wings of time.

2010-07-14T20:16:00.000+08:00

Earthlingggggggs. (:
HAHAHA.
Hmmm, today was pretty normal thou .

Hmm, school was okay .
But i realised. Im quite a failed vice-chairman x.x
Tsk . I will try harder!
KEKE.

CHEM ASP.
OMGOMGOMG.
We were doing this experiment.
I was doing it alone, cuz taff not in school today.
I was doing halfway, still very happy with my achievement. x:
Then suddenly alot of hot stuffs landed on my hand and arm.
I looked at my hand.
And thought, "It's hot."
Then i put down my test tube.
Then reaction came, "AHH. HOT!"
Rinse with water.
Now hand swollen and reddd. ):
Fine, it will recover soon.
Who ask me so accident-prone. ):

Okay, off to complete some english compo !
Ahnyong ! :D

xoxo. /♥

Two souls beating as one.

2010-07-13T17:59:00.000+08:00

Let us last forever.

Earthlings! :D

Hadn't been updating recently .

Sorry yeh. ):

Oral are done with.

And not gna think about it.

Currently working hard for my listening compre!

Heehee.

School life was pretty normal ?

Today's recess was epic.

We were actually talking about th china students.

And Q,K and O were talking about th china men and th peephole.

Seriously funny ttm! :D

AND.

Random didn't quarrelled for 1 month!

Miracle eh ? x:

Okay, there's people who are extremely weird.

Idk whether they are stalking or just plain concidence.

Please, if you wanna dig something out.

Ask straight.

Don't go one whole round and ask?

Tsktsktsk.

Ask finish then go about adding spices and sauces to the original story. -.-

*shakes head*

What a bad example.

What a hypocrite.

Ahnyong people.

Wouldn't be updating much these days.

xoxo. /♥

Nervous heart.

2010-07-07T08:39:00.000+08:00

Heyy earthlings. (:
Sorry for not really updating these few weeks.
As you know, school has started and it's getting really busy.

Okay, today there is like oral? -.-
Eew, feeling super nervous.
My A1 depends on this already.
Shall not screw it up ):
Homework is piling up like mount everest. ):
Esp, english homework . *pouts*
Hvn been finishing up my english homework thou x:

F&N practical is coming soon .
omgomgomg.
Everything's coming too fast!
Get over and done with my oral today!
Aja aja Samantha! <:
Aft tht, it's english oral .
More scaryyy. ):

I gotta jet!
It's F&N lesson now! <:
Ahnyong! :D

P.S. ;
Char, cheerup many kays? (:
We keep to our promise.
Aft all those big exams, we'll do something we should <:
Loveyou! ♥

xoxo. /♥

A lil too ahead of time.

2010-07-02T17:03:00.000+08:00

Earthlings! <:
Okay, super tired these days. ):

Chinese Os orals on 7th july!
Stress much ):
Homework as usual piling up . ):
More cui .
Feeling extremely hungry now! x:
Off to grab something to eat! <:
Ahnyong!

xoxo. /♥

Forlorn in love.

2010-06-26T01:01:00.000+08:00

Je t'aime.

Earthlings! <:

Today is th last day of ACE.

Happy much! <:

I walked arnd th school canteen bare-footed x:

Suxian keep on complaining about her wet shoes! >:

Just like her personality! *winks*

She gonna hit me <:

We started off with th 'bleach' thingy.

Now her depressed personality! x:

HAHAHA.

Had a super fun day with Zarinar and Ongting! ♥

We were like recording down our voices when we sing. x:

Zarinar is soooooooo 'shy' !

Wl, really like two person.

Aft tht, she was so obsessed with the 'ralalala' !

Keesiao one.

Sing thn laugh at herself.

We laugh like some mad people.

Suxian complain us very noisy :B

Tskkkkk.

Advices advices advices!

Important much.

Cherishhhhhh. <:

Ahnyonggg! :D

xoxo. /♥

Love at first sight.

2010-06-25T00:39:00.000+08:00

Hey earthlinggggs.
Tmr is the last day! :D
Weeeheheee.

School happened something O:
Hmmm.
Hope they get well soon. <:
Gotta jet!
Ahnyong! <:

xoxo. /♥

Never ending hurt.

2010-06-21T22:37:00.001+08:00

Hey earthlings. <:
Okay, Im always part of SunRain yeah? (Y)
Teehee :3
Okeh, maybe people may not quite understand.
But on one note, is halfway done.
I Don't Care - 100%
2 Different Tears English - 100%
Kissing You - 100%
Run Devil Run - 100%
Crazy - 30% (Sun wasn't able to master tht bloody rap!)
Abracadabra - 50% (Sun's still learning her verses! :D )
Hmms, others we hvn trained on them yet.
Currently is just this <:

Today had mock exams, which I totally forgot about. -.-
only remember tmr's oral exams x:
It was okayyyy thou.
Nearly fell asleep ><

Okeh, I shall be off to play audi for a lil teeny weeny while <:
Ahnyong!
SunRain! (L)

xoxo. /♥

A lil tooo quiet.

2010-06-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

EARTHLINGS. <:
Yeah, was a lil dead these days I guess. ):
Gonna give it a lil update (:

These days was still as boring as ever.
But these days was a lil shaken.
Shaken. Badly shaken.
I guess Im just gonna survive all these.
Let me settle one thing at a time.
Just one.
I hope I would be so stressed out yeah,

Hmm, gotta jet. (:
Ciaos, (:

Maybe it's time for me to say goodbye.

xoxo. /♥

Unreasonable shits.

2010-06-07T00:32:00.000+08:00

Heyz people.
Oh, busy this whole June hols. ._.
With hmwkkkk! ):

Hello?
Why are you people so frigging dumb?
You think I'm dumb?
Or what?
You're not able to face up to people?
Continue being a keyboard warrior? -.-
Oh please, one big sucker.
No point please.
Use your bloody brains to think.
Does 'ILoveYou" is such a meaningless 3 words to you?
Use it whatever and whenever you want.
WOW.

xoxo. /♥

You're sucha dumbass.

2010-06-04T00:50:00.000+08:00

Hey earthlings, (:
Quite sorry I didn't update my blogg. *Pouts*
I had left it DEAD! ):

Kayz. Chinese O's are over! :D
F&N O's practical are over! :D
I cleared 2 already! :D
Getting ready to chiong the other alreadyyyyy.
I really want a A1 for chinese please! *prays*

Hmm, my holidays are a gone case already.
Why?
Cuz Im stuck in school. ( 4A's classroom) for ACE program ! >[
How shag is that!?
My 4weeks of holidays are gone like that! ):
Hmmm, ystd was RANDOM's 1year Anniversaryyy! ♥

ONGTING:
SUMO girlz, thank you for all the support and love you gave me! :D
Hmmm, listen to me rant about tht ass. <:
And helping me think of solutions. <:
Help me diao people I detest! :D
Weeeee, I love you girlz! :D

KALINDA:
Laogong ah! :D
Thank you for all those constructive comments you gave in my diaryyy yeah (:
But hor, hello & byebye isn't one good one okay!? *pouts*
Thank you for all your support, and the laughters you provide to us! ♥
loveya! :D

YIQING:
BITCH/TWINNEH! :D
HAHAHAHAHA. It's okayyy to let you suan.
But got limits one hor. <:
You know my weak point, I know yours! (winkwink)
Hmmm. thank you for tolerating my craps? x:
HAHAHAHAHAHA. loveya bitchhh! ♥

ZARINAR:
QAD! :D
I know we practically quarrel everytime we call each other or msn-ed. :x
It's practically normal for both of us le right?
If not, we have to buy lotsa gifts for each other x: !
Teehee , thank you for listening to me rant and crap about tht dumbass. X:
Loveyou ! :D

Lastly, dedicated to someone. <:

Girlz, You are gonna pull thru this okay?
Don't forget this sister here. ♥
Anything , be sure to tell me.
I will be here to listen. (:
Don't be afraid. (:
You know, I'll always be here for you! ♥

P.S:
DUMBASS AH. IM NOT AS DUMB AS YOU THOUGHT.
Give you 1 quote.
"Never underestimate a girl's ability to find out things."
Remember this, I'm not as naive as you thought.
Sucker!

xoxo. /♥

The pain you gave was so so bad.

2010-05-22T22:48:00.000+08:00

Hey earthlings! :D
I passed my Emaths paper1 yeah! (Y)
Okeh, was extremely happy.
And I really really really hope I'll pass my paper 2 . >:

These days, really all about CHINESE.
Oh god, super shag please.
Having a walk-a-ton on wed . O:
And a class picnic on thurs! :D
weheeheh. <:

Gotta go!
Ciaos! :D

P.S.
ZARINAR LIM, YOU BETTER DONT DROP ANOTHER TEAR.
MY HEART SUPER PAINS. >:

xoxo. /♥

Like sunshine and rain.

2010-05-19T23:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA! ♥

Heyyyyy earthlings.
I guess its like a long time the last time i updated.
EXAMS ARE OVER! (Y)
But I think they are all equally screwed up <:

2DT is cooooool man! ♥
Okayyyyy.
Life's hard.
TODAYYYYY.
HE FINANLY FINALLY DID WHAT HE SHOULD.
I NEVER SEE THAT COMING.
SO HE WAS A JERK FROM TH START.
SORRY, I WAS BLIND -.-

Byez peeps.
Intensive chinese tmr ):
Sad die! D:

xoxo. /♥

Twooooo Different Tears.

2010-05-15T15:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DENNIS TUDI! <:

Wahahahah. old liao hor, dont get angry so easily <:

Anything can tell shifuuu. <:

Shifuuu forever here <:

You are as old as me le x:

2 different tears is out! <:

omo omo .

SUPER CHIO. I love them alot please.

Im anticipating to the whole album okayyyyyyyy! <:

LASTLY.

3 papers left! (Y)

xoxo. /♥

SUNMI my girlz.

2010-05-02T00:16:00.000+08:00

SUNMI SUNMI SUNMI ! ♥

Happy birthday girlz!

You know all Wonderfuls are waiting for your return.

You must be happy naoz.

But missing th times spent together the Wondergirls during your birthday? (:

It's okay, Wonderfuls will always remember it.

We love you. ♥

Happy birthday SUNMI!

Saranghaeyo. ♥

Saengkil chuka hamida~

xoxo. /♥

People change, you know?

2010-04-30T23:49:00.000+08:00

Hai earthlings. (:
HAD MY LAST 2.4km RUN <:
Damn cui please. *pouts*
Asthma came bck.
What's better than that? *pouts*

True enough.
I ran w ongting.
and i got myself a 114 position.
Wow, when i ran into school.
I was like gonna give up soon.
Cuz my asthma was killing me. x.x
Then suddednly I heard : "SAMANTHA! SAMANTHA! 快点跑!"
Then I heard : "AH GONG! 快点跑!要到liao! "
Then I heard : " SAM GOGO! RUNNNNNNNN~ "
Then i feel so motivated.
I chiong-ed to th finishing line x:
WAHAHAHAH.
Thanks people <:

Then dizzy spells. feel like vomiting.
All sorts of weird stuffs.
Naoz, my legs are starting to ache. ._.
Gotta go!
tuition hmwk!
Byez! :D

xoxo. /♥

What goes around comes around.

2010-04-28T23:10:00.000+08:00

Hai earthlings <:
School is still pretty hectic yeah? ):

Really didn't understand why.
Cuz school was hectic and hard,
Today I screwed my oral! *sobs*
I was practically stoning! >[
omgomg. Chinese oral like tht.
English oral also like tht.
I was super nervous please >:
Suan le,
no point crying over spilt milk. *pouts*

Ahnyongz! :D

Old witch ah old witch.
Me doing what I want, srly none of your business. (:
If you really care, buzz off from my sight. (highly impossible)

xoxo. /♥

Birthday birthday birthday girlz.

2010-04-25T22:30:00.000+08:00

Hmmm!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMANTHA NEO! <:
Hmmm, great day!

Had manymanymany (endless) surprises please!
Firstly went to watson for my first clue! <:
Mrs Ng, Sherlene, Suxian pop out of no where!
I was screaming in watsons <:
Second venue was th kiddy toilet on 4th floor. <:
I saw Glen at th entrance
I was like stone thr.
Wow, Random inv-ed him too.
Then he asked me to go inside.
I saw th one and only cubicle was closed but not locked.
I was like "got ppl inside?"
When I opened th dooor. <:
Very well. Th pressie is th toilet bowl! :D
Went to metro aftermath.
Saw weihao O:
He was another person inv-ed. (:
He asked me to pick a clothes and go into changing room.
then I saw th pressie.
I 趴 on th floor laughing hysterically!
In th metro's changing room!
It was WG's pencil board!
Then went to KFC.
I saw cowwie thr.
THEN HE LIGHT UP TH SPECIAL "CAKE"! <:
omg so kewl .
Then th GUEST arrived.
Its my Terence papa! <:
I was super shocked
I was laughing like mad ><
HAHAHAHAAH.

Went home, had steamboat w family.
And "Oral-B" cake! ♥
Tear up pressies! ><
Love all th pressies much!
And lastly,
Thank you RANDOM for everything.
All th programs!
Iloveyou guys! ♥

Andandand, not to forget!
Terence papa!
Thank you for your pressie!
I love it much! :D
I will not torture it <:

Suxian&Siqi,
I will take good care okeh!
Suxian, dont worry.
I will TRY not to swing its arms or legs <:

Sherlene Laopo,
Thank you for th mug!
Super kewl! :D
Iloveit! <:

Cousins,Sist,Family,
Thanks for everything. <:
HAHAAHA. I enjoyed it alot. <:

lastly.
Charmaine!
Thanks! <:
I hope we can be really great frnds (:
Anything you can tell me, I will be there to be a listening ear!
Stay pretty babe! ♥

THANKS FOR ALL TH WISHES! <:
AHNYONGz.
SAMANTHA NEO is officially a grown girlz. <:

xoxo. /♥

A little too sour.

2010-04-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

Sheesh.
I suckkk.

I failed at everything.
Cheering people up.
Im best at making people angry.
Using this damn mouth of mine.
Nao i know why.
All along, i suck.
Dont feel like posting anymore.
Th thought of it makes me hate myself more..
Ahnyongz..

xoxo. /♥

Everything is fake from the start.

2010-04-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

Nothing much for me to update about?
This whole week will be busy with school's speech day.
And this week pretty sucked ttm.

5moredays, and im still here acting like some dumbass kid -.-
Whenever I fail to do smth, I cry.
Everything I cry.
WTH is happening to me?
Why am I crying so much this year?
Over small stuffs, results.
Useless.
I make people worry for me.

I want to get away from all these drama.
All this stress.
From this world.
I wished I never existed to make people worry or miserable.
I fail at everything.
Even cheering someone up, I failed at that too.
Now I really wish it can rain and I will be able to wash all these away.
Cuz th only thing i can do is to cry,
or,
cheer myself up.

xoxo. /♥

A road of love isn't as easy as it seemed.

2010-04-18T00:19:00.000+08:00

Hai earthlings. :D
That tudi of mine asked me to blog x.x
So I am here blogging duh. (:

Life's as mundane as ever.
And seriously.
Im sick once again.
but this time.
Not flu, fever, cough or any illnesses you manage to think of.
Serious stomach pains since 4days ago. -.-
I didn't told my parents obviously.
this morning, woke up with th pains so strong.
Im stuck in th toilet for 2 hours -.-
Sitting and bending down, on th toilet bowl. -.-
Epic shit.
No tuition.
But I NEED IT.
thr's a stupid maths ST on monday.
AND I WANT TO PASS IT. ):

omg, suddenly this blog is so full of nagging.
and it's dying alr. ):
Low-readership.
cuz got lousy blogger <:
Problem not solved. -.-
Mrs Ng keeep ask me update her about my friendship prob :B
Can see she worried lah ><
Because Im her ah gong vice chair! :D
omg, th post is getting longer.
And it's full of crap -.-

And something makes me real sad.
Im stepping down soon? ):
Omg, i really missed the fun I have with my CCA frnds from sec1 till naoz.
sec1 we dont have much stuffs.
Sec2 was great!
KL trip! :D
Omg, 4floor.
ALL ICC people live.
We run here run there.
Borrowing chargers and stuffs.
And night tio caught by DM and tchrs.
Eating cup noodles in room with my roommates.
Singing with jiehao and sherlene on th bus.
Sec3 was the SDMA camp.
All sleep together. (:
Watch-ed final destinationt till 3am.
really.
Thank you all for th wonderful memories. :D
Though its a club cca, i manage to get a1 for my cca <:
WAHAAHAHAHAAH :D

Ahnyongz,
Sorry tudi x:
Short post to super long and naggy post <:

xoxo. /♥

This song.

2010-04-15T23:53:00.000+08:00

She talked to me today. :D
Heheheheh. :D
I so happy . :D
And im also happy for jamie! :D

kaykaykay. At this late hour, im still awake?
its like 1.30am?
Sorry, my blog clock is abit screwed. -.-
So yeah.
Dk why, i feel unexpectedly emotional naoz.
listening to 2AM's this song.
Great song :D
Emo. (:

I think i shall go off?
Hmm, byez :D

I hate insomnia not because it doesn’t put me into sleep,
but puts me in the state of reminiscing memories which I know I can’t bring back.

xoxo. /♥

Rainy days never fails me.

2010-04-13T22:31:00.000+08:00

School was mundane today too.
Nothing much happen, you know. (:
As usual, problem not solved.
And thanks for many people's concern. :D
Esp, Isabel siaodingdong! <:
Sorry I was unable to control my tear ducts todayy again.

You know, had quite a long chat with Isabel SDD. <:
I talked alot, like some machine gun.
I just keep talking and talking.
Had another talk during PE.
My one and only chance to solve and salvage the whole situation.
But, I didn't grab it.
Instead, I cried. -.-
Had another talk during english lesson.
Kalinda and Zarinar were telling me about my flaws?
I was like first reaction, "Just dont say attitude, i know alr."
Then they started to talk about my good points.
Suddenly, zarinar just say, "At this point, I only see your flaws."
I was CUI, ):
Then zarinar told me, "你有时很温柔，有时很粗鲁."
I was omg? Im gentle? <:
Kalinda then cut in, "when is samantha gentle?!"
LOLOL.
But i was happy, at least they told me stuffs. (:

Lastly, thankyou mrs ng (:
I know you saw me cry.
and come 安慰me, <:
她们没有欺负我，放心. <:
Iloveyou MrsNg ♥
And i dont be so bad.
Thankyou tudi too <:
I will use my fingers to pull the ends of my mouth <:
Ahnyongz! :D

xoxo. /♥

You know, I'm sorry.

2010-04-12T22:28:00.000+08:00

Today has be a very bad start for this whole week.
You know, it's since ages I last heard tht comment from her?
It's hurts as badly as before.
But sadly, I cannot do anything to salvage.

School was mundane. ):
F&N, me, zar and eddie was laughing at someone's blog. x:
His blog posts super funny.
I was laughing so hysterically, that I forgotten what she said.
But still it lingers...

Maths mock exams?
Total wreck.
Dont even bother mentioned it.
I hope I can pass..
And returned home with the emotions flooding thru me again..

Gotta go. (:
Ahnyongz <:

History repeats itself once more.
I cannot do anything to salvage.
We are gonna have conversations without words.
Or worst, no conversations.
Sadly though, I didn't know what's wrong w me.
I know my attitude.
Can you tell me?
Dont hang me arnd here.
What have I changed?
I really dont know..
But really, I wish this would stop and things would be
Normal again...

Lastly, Im sorry for what I said.
It is all a joke.
Im so so sorry..
Dont blame me..
I blamed myself too much naoz.
Im sucha bitch.
I wouldn't say those anymore.
Im sorry girlz...

xoxo. /♥

I wish Im normal.

2010-04-12T00:38:00.001+08:00

Oh god, school is super stressful okeh? -.-
And thr a major Emaths mock exam! *faints*

Hectic school life.
Samantha Neo's life is pretty mundane yeah? (:
So yeahhhhhhhh.
Sad die, cuz its still a couple of month to O levels.
And i really wish to push a "pause" button in my life.
Sad much. ):
Hais.
My life nothing much really.
No life! :D

Okeh, this blog post is getting rather boring naoz.
I shall be off to chiong my F&N coursework AGAIN.
Tskkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

Anyways, who dare try my dishes? :B
Huhuhu x:
Ahnyongz!

Lastly, if you're so unwilling.
Don't be sucha ass.
No one is expecting you to do it okay?
And you absolutely have no rights to comment about what I done.
Or in fact what I want.
Don't think one word from you can change anything.
I make you feel guilty.
I will prove you wrong.

xoxo. /♥

Zombies of thee world unite.

2010-04-09T00:11:00.000+08:00

Oh seriously.
At this point of time.
It's 12.10am. ):
And im stuck here doing decision making!

Oh god, tmr's friday.
And im anticipating. :D
I cant wait to have long hours of sleep.
Im depriving sleep once school starts.
How shag is that! -.-

Anyways, some zombie shocked me almost everytime cans!
*pouts*
Zombie says: I have 4 eyes, i can see clear clearrrrrrrr.
I say: Oh really. Am i blind?
Zombie says: yeah <:

Still, school sucks every single day.
I screwed today's oral -.-
I was stoning in front of th tchr.
for 9secs.
And she asked to start. ><
Ohgod, when can SAMANTHA NEO stop stoning?
Never ever. :D

Kayz, late.
I gna chiong tonight liao.
Say byebye to my sleep ):

xoxo. /♥

-xPLUSHY ♥

你还记得 孩子气的我吗?

Emotionally attached me.

Regrets.

新岁只是我自己.

Little miracles.

Wrong signals.

Pretty Boy.

Control.

Closure.

Emotional me.

Distance don't matter.

Forbidden memories.

Teenage memories.

Please don't cry.

New life.

Say you need me.

Strawberry kiss.

Empty promises.

Big gathering, warm faces.

Unchained love.

I dream high.

Love is...

Learn it the hard way.

Keep dreaming upside down.

Choices and decisions.

Disappointment.

Nervoussssssss.

Tears don't lie.

Photogenic love.

Personality check.

Tears and Rain.

New year, new resolutions.

You're my honey.

Weakling.

Kitty kitten.

Floods of tears.

Missing you.

Last Christmas.

I'll be back.

It's in the rain.

I don't wanna be alone this christmas.

Ounce of courage.

It meant nothing.

WONDER.

Staring blankly.

Feelings gone.

Emotional shits.

Prom.

ITS OVER.

Tweettweet.

I can't breathe.

I care about you so much.

Emotional thoughts.

Shady Girlz.

Make it shine.

Shock.

Rainy rainy.

Hurt that turns to disappointment.

Hurt that lingers on.

Reach for the stars.

Disappointment.

Emotional rush.

All I want is love again.

Break it up!

Trancetrancetrance.

Little experiment.

Candy boy.

Wreckage you left.

Sugar sugar luv.

Concidence do happen.

Your place in my heart.

You got me twisted.

So shut up boy.

Realising that all is just a dream.

Come back, will you ?

Sadness flies away on the wings of time.

Two souls beating as one.

Nervous heart.

A lil too ahead of time.

你还记得孩子气的我吗?